from the author

I have a confession to make:

I have not read a book in a really long time. I think it’s been a year. I started and stopped so many books in 2011. I did not finish a one. There’s no good reason why I haven’t been reading. I’ve been busy. I’ve been stressed.

But that’s never stopped me before.

When I was in college, I used to gobble up “for pleasure” books all the time. Mostly during the holidays. But I was a writing major and I was doing a lot of freaking reading all throughout college.

I think that’s why writing here has been really hard. Reading helps me examine my own writing. It inspires me! It gets me in story mode.

The writing I do on Fake Persona is not supposed to be complete. I don’t feel like I’m writing stories here. I’m purely writing as an exercise. Sometimes there is a beginning, middle and end, but other times, there is purely prose. I’m a short story writer for sure. I’ve failed many times in writing longer pieces, so that’s why you don’t see many here.

That’s the hard stuff. The stuff I keep to work on.

Probably no one knows, other than my husband, that I come up with most of my prose the very day that I push publish. It comes out in spurts. Sometimes a few short things all at once and that is a very good thing. Sometimes I only have an idea for the first sentence and it takes me a very long time to work it into something that I think is worth the “publish now” button.

It can be hard to let go.

Sometimes it only takes five or ten minutes, but other times it sits as a draft for days, weeks or months. Never finished. Incomplete. Unpublished.

But each like, reblog and/or comment, inspires me to keep it up!

I’m like everyone else. I think I suck. I get so down on myself that I feel guilty for not writing, but nothing is there. A total blank page in my mind. Every single thing I type out is no good. I just keep hitting backspace. Over thinking. Under thinking. Sometimes it’s easy, but most days it’s very hard. No excuses. It’s just the way writing goes.

So if there’s silence and you want me to write something. Tell me so! Inspire me to keep digging for new ideas or to rethink old ones.  Go ahead and nudge the ask box. Give me a prompt! I don’t bite, but my words might.

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